Hector knows that it is not his destiny to be happy.
He feels he does not deserve happiness.
His happiness might wound his parents, who have never known happiness of their own.
But when Hector finds Nefeli who attracts him and loves him, he knows happiness.
For a while, he forgets that romantic fulfillment is not in his life script.
When he surrenders to joy, it becomes clear that what he experiences violates his sense of reality.
He feels misaligned with the way things usually are and this triggers anxiety.
There is only one way to reduce his anxiety: reduce the joy.
Unconsciously, he begins to destroy the relationship.
Nefeli is so committed to him and perseveres.
But nothing she can do is ever enough to make him feel loved.
Finally, he exhausts her, and she walks away.
Hector tells himself, “I always knew no one could ever truly love me”.
Homeostasis. Equilibrium. No anxiety.
Thoughts?
Loving you, Angelos